blog post 04

Todays Song of the day is inspired by the feeling of being stuck in fight not flight for the last 4 years of my life. After being sexually assaulted my sophomore year of college I made a promise to myself to not let it change or stop my life for the worse.

Although I am very proud to say that this evil person pushed me to be the founder of this start up that i am oh so very passionate about along with a self published author of 4 books and counting.I have entered this part of my healing journey where I do actually really want to take a pause.

I think the idea that after a life altering event whether it be: being assaulted(sexually or physically), a death in the family, or simply just a life changing argument with a family member or significant other, it is unrealistic for it to not “change” You. When healing (still healing) from being raped, I think I was so stuck on not letting it change me that it hindered my growth.

I have now learned to embrace the change that each major life event evokes in me as a person (both positive and negative ones). Associating change with growth makes change seem less scary and thats what i wrote this song about. The idea that despite the chaos you always have to learn to make lemonade with the bullshit.

To those who read and have subscribed. I appreciate you. I cant wait to add audio to these blog posts one day so you can actually hear my songs.

Blog post 03

Todays song of the day was actually inspired by something i wrote on the back cover of my first book: “Everyone is healing from things they don’t talk about.”

This ideology is something that i actively try to remind myself on a daily basis when interacting with other people; because I think, from an outsiders perspective, I am one of those people who simply just don’t look like i have any struggles. Whether those be financial struggles or mental health struggles, i don’t outwardly appear to be struggling.

In fact its something i both pride myself on and am actively trying to change, because admitting to struggling and reaching out to ask for help is totally okay; and doing so doesn’t make me or anyone WEAK. However, the inner conflict that i personally have with myself when admitting to be going through a hard time is what inspired these lyrics. I hope everyone reading finds them to be RELATABLE.

Anyways, thanks for tuning in to my blog post. i hope whoever reads this has a wonderful day & please remember to be mindful that you have no idea what someone is dealing with behind closed doors, so please—be nice to everyone even when you aren’t feeling like your nicest self. don’t take it out on other people. this is your sign, to be more selfless<3

Blog post 02

Hello, Internet. todays song of the day- i decided to rewrite Avril lavigne’s song “complicated”. I kareoke this song at least 5 out of the 7 days a week in my car and although no re-write could ever do this song justice because she is so awesome i decided to use it as a source of inspiration.

I have always been inspired by her music, I remember learning the dance to “girlfriend” when it first came out. My point in bringing that up, is that she has always been such a source of inspiration for me- she truly is such an icon. i hope one day to work with her, that would be oh so very cool.

but anyways, I hope anyone reading this has a very good day. thanks for clicking on my link and reading my blog. thats so cool. I also would just like to remind everyone that without inspiration there is no art, my professor told me that and i never forgot about it so i feel like i should share it.

also FACT OF THE DAY THAT I FEEL LIKE SHARING: DID YOU KNOW THAT THE AVERage adult human body is comprised of approximately 8 octillion atoms. now isn’t that cool and kind of humbling to realize that we are actually all just a bunch of atoms, there everyone is equal and no one is better, or cooler than anyone. :) okay goodbye. subscribe to be notified for when i do this next time.

Blog post 01

Hello, Internet, this will be my first blog post. If you follow my art instagram you will probably know that I usually post a daily sketch or song. I will be posting a more in depth explanation about my daily sketches, songs, or really whatever medium I decide to post on here.

So Today I have decided to share a song. Hopefully soon I will be able to add audios to these because I think that would be super cool. For As long as I can remember I’ve always written songs. I think I was writing songs before I even knew I was writing a song, if that makes any sense at all. Writing a song has single handedly been the best tool I have ever learned to express emotions. Often times It is really difficult for me to pin point what exactly it is that I am feeling, sometimes my brain just feels like a bunch of sounds instead of words.

This song i actually wrote a while ago and its kind of a funny story. Once Upon a time coco found out that this super random irrelevant human being made a whole bunch of something out of nothing and got his ego hurt over the fact that I just simply didn’t like him as much as he thought i did. However I will admit to a crush, but it just wasn’t that deep. So I wrote this song as a way to express my frustration not just to him but about the entire male population for always making a bunch of something out of nothing.

Isn’t it funny how when men get their ego bruised the story they tell is that she was so crazy in love obsessed over him. Like please…

dear. MR is too late too realize you were wrong.

Now that concludes my first blog post. Feedback appreciated.