todays song of the day is inspired by my feelings of burn out but also my feelings of frustration because i recently learned that those who experience trauma (of any kind) in adult life don’t suffer from PTSD as much in comparison to those who experienced trauma in their childhood.

i guess this song is mostly about how it feels unfair to be a traumatized child and have no idea i was a traumatized child until my adult life.

it almost feels like my life started set up for failure.

that being said, i am proud of where i am and the way i live my life. i am happy to not be a victim to my trauma but rather find comfort in educating myself on how it effects me in my adult life, and how to prevent my triggers. i am mostly proud that my human experience has made me a better person not a worse one and has forced me to always keep pushing myself no matter how i feel or how tired i am.